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i’m just an addict
July 6, 2006———————————————
currently listening to: Aerosmith’s Jaded
current mood: Jaded?
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Well. I’ve just spent several minutes of my day staring at pictures of Brandon Boyd from the recent Celebrity Surf Jam held in California.
Sigh. I’ve got it bad. Real bad.
I remember some few days ago, my co-worker Clarson caught me staring at my wallpaper and laughed at me. Grrrr. He said, "Dude, I saw you, you were just staring at your screen!"
I told him, "I was thinking. And it’s Brandon Boyd!" Which probably wasn’t said in the right way, coz then he got this really mischievous, teasing look on his face, and asked me what was I thinking about Brandon hmmm? Uuuuggh.
Sigh. What do you do when you finally realized you have become obsessed with something or someone?
Wait a minute! Didn’t I promise myself I wasn’t gonna use that word? Yes, in an old post in my old blog, I told myself I wasn’t gonna say obsessed. I’m simply…addicted. 
So what was I thinking about anyway? I was staring at the pictures, and had a sudden moment. A moment of decision, of hope, of…resolve? I had a sudden flash of me getting my way, that I was gonna get what I wanted, that someday I’m gonna stand in front of Brandon Boyd and MAKE him notice me.
And then it was gone, like a light dying out, losing to the dark. I’m back to staring at my wallpaper again. Dream on, you silly girl. Hell yeah.
God! I’m scared to even think that I’ve got it that bad. ;(
