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reminiscing
March 29, 2006Last night on my way home, I heard a voice that I’ve sorely missed hearing around the office.
"Martine!"
Only one person ever in all of Bigfoot called me by my 2nd name. Jai.
I looked around and spotted him sitting with a group at one of the tables outside the downstairs coffeeshop. I waved, and he waved gaily back.
"How are you, girl?" he asked me, and all I could say was "OK" with a little laugh. I wanted to say "I miss you" but didn’t want to be misinterpreted by the people he was with.
I am very fond of Jai. I like him very, very much, not in the mushy, romantic sense, mind you. I like him as a person, as a friend, as an uber-fun guy to be with. He was one of those male friends you can hug and cuddle and make beso-beso with in the strictest platonic fashion.
Seeing him then made me reminisce old times and recall all the friends I had who were like him — my bros in the community, my kuyas in the ministry, all the good guy friends I had from high school to college…
I miss cuddling up to a guy knowing that my actions will not be misunderstood, to seek comfort in a guy’s arms without fear of malice, to make lambing and pa-cute without getting conscious or discomfited or embarrassed, and simply receive genuine friendship and companionship.
I miss all those friends, and all those times.
There was Kya Danny, my favorite kuya back in college, who always gave me a hug and a kiss on the forehead as greeting.
Kuya Randy, who was a good guy to cuddle and hold hands with when I just wanted some companionship.
And more. I don’t know why I’m naming names but I’ll stop before this gets too long and too detailed.
Life takes us on different paths, but I know someday, in one way or another, we’ll see each other again. So see you then. 
