it's raining again.
it's been raining almost unceasingly today. the skies stayed dull and lifeless, throwing a shadow over everything.
i don't know if i'm happy with the rain today. my heart has been, well…sort of heavy lately. i think it wants to empathize with the weather. to have its own spell of rain. but it only managed a few tears, and then everything dried up. it couldn't focus on a single emotion, because my thoughts wouldn't stay still. they just sort of run amok, and my heart had to run to keep up with them.
sometimes i think that i think too much. i guess that's the price of being alone. one has nothing but one's thoughts for company. we retreat deep inside ourselves because there's no other way to go. we pretend we're better off than we are, we build worlds where the rules are our own, where we find love and live happily ever after.
castles in the air, as strong as the hope that lives inside us, but as fragile as smoke when that hope wavers.
this blog is definitely living up to its name.