i feel like i'm stuck in creative limbo. again.
i can't seem to get out the words that used to overflow from my thoughts anymore. why? it's like i've snuggled deep down into this cocoon of mediocrity, fighting the commonplace and yet afraid to venture out.
i feel so insecure, and i hate this constant need for affirmation. a writer shouldn't have to write to please everyone, because then he will end up pleasing no one. cliched. but true, i feel.
but i can't even please myself. i write something. i think it is good. i read somebody else's work. hell, my own piece suddenly falls all the way down to the bottom, barely even touching "good". i cannot stop myself from comparing. and i give up even before my feet have touched the fire.
i simply MUST get rid of this insecurity. i have to keep writing, if only to save my own sanity. i have to STOP this negativity, this unwholesome rejection of my own worth.
but it's hard. i am my own worst enemy, my number one critic, the one who bursts my own bubble. i am my own downfall.
oh me, save me.
Menger, Have I ever thanked you for this comment? =P
At least I know I have one fan lurking around somewhere. Menger!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =P
Posted by panyang at December 11, 2007, 7:03 pm
i figured it was time for new beginnings. the old asylum was getting rather crowded, what with three years worth of lamentations.
so i have moved to a new home, a spankin' new asyLuM. if you miss the old one, you can still read my laments of yore here.
welcome, then.
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i’ll add u to mine as well! =)
@coriander: sure no problem! 
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interesting.. calm.. beyond belief.. keep it up!
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I so can relate. Humans. We can never be satisfied.
Hey, if it makes you feel better, let me tell you you’re a fantastic story teller. I love your stories ever since. Few people have that talent.
Just keep on writing. I will always be your fan. =)
Posted by Menger at August 9, 2007, 10:28 pm